soooo, april told me today that i would be a really good mother.
i think that was the best compliment ever.
is that weird? maybe.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
ONE DAY vs. THIRTY DAYS
1. Justine - i love it. if it wasn't already my middle name, it would be the name of my first born daughter.
2. tattoos - one swallow on each foot, 18 yrs old. mother's initials on the inside of my right wrist, 18.5 years old. piercings - a LOT. only have my lobes, conches, cartilages, nose, and tongue left. and i miss my wrist piercing the most :(
3. Trueblood, Animal Cops, Dexter, Chlesea Lately.
4. Tay & Kristina - known kristina for ever. met taylor senior year, word.
5. Red, Black, Silver.
6. winter - i love my peacoats, what can i say?
7. BLOGGER - i don't remember though.
8. a bit of both - i never work out anymore because i fill my days with sleep and friends and work, but if there were more than 24 hrs in a day, and less work, i would be at the gym a LOT more.
9. idk what a "meme" is, i just googled it, and it still makes so sense...maybe i am a retard.
10. RETTTTTA, my baby. she's dumb as shit, but i love her for it.
11. The Noisettes, Brand New, and Incubus. it's safe to throw in Saves The Day, and Manchester Orchestra, also.
12. Harrrry POTTTA. he's the bomb diggity.
13. Mean Girls defines my life. what?
14. I have two half brothers and a newly born half sister. um, i don't talk to or see my dad's kids, and i love with my brother jakey wakey eggs and bakey and he's one of my best friends.
15. Chocolate and Hot Tamales. i doubt anyone knows that...weird.
16. umm, probably snow white and the seven dwarfs.
17. FUCK ugg boots...it's all about them EMUS. yes, they are ugly, but they'll work until i get a boyfriend who gives GOOD foot rubs.
18. MILK, yummm. chocolate milk is my first love.
19. NOYFB.
20. nope. thankfully, i got my father's eyes.
21. PSYCHOLOGY. luvvvv it.
22. i used to play field hockey and i kinda miss it. i also used to dance, and i REALLY miss that.
23. lady gaga is the shit. she's famous for being weirdly attractive and being able to sing her heart out not to mention bust out some crazy shit at the same time...AND pull off a dress that was literally "off the meat rack" if you HATE her, you're just jealous. if you love her, join the club.
24. i literally JUST saw SAW 3D. it was good, as usual.
25. last book i read....uhh, oh yeah! i read all of chelsea handler's books. HOLLA!
26. ITALY, INDIA, and SPAIN.
27. girls - emma marie, alexa lynn. boys - max amillion, christopher connor. pets(dogs) - mufahsa, retta, and zero(my future dog).
28. jonathan taylor thomas, i will never forget when my poster with him on it got ripped, i cried alllll fucking day. UNHEALTHY. usher was pretty hot, too.
29. No opinions.
*commercial break...llyod banks is a sexy ass mother fucker. WHEW! omg...AND funny.
30. ummm, this isn't recent at all...but i love it, and it was a good good night.
2. tattoos - one swallow on each foot, 18 yrs old. mother's initials on the inside of my right wrist, 18.5 years old. piercings - a LOT. only have my lobes, conches, cartilages, nose, and tongue left. and i miss my wrist piercing the most :(
3. Trueblood, Animal Cops, Dexter, Chlesea Lately.
4. Tay & Kristina - known kristina for ever. met taylor senior year, word.
5. Red, Black, Silver.
6. winter - i love my peacoats, what can i say?
7. BLOGGER - i don't remember though.
8. a bit of both - i never work out anymore because i fill my days with sleep and friends and work, but if there were more than 24 hrs in a day, and less work, i would be at the gym a LOT more.
9. idk what a "meme" is, i just googled it, and it still makes so sense...maybe i am a retard.
10. RETTTTTA, my baby. she's dumb as shit, but i love her for it.
11. The Noisettes, Brand New, and Incubus. it's safe to throw in Saves The Day, and Manchester Orchestra, also.
12. Harrrry POTTTA. he's the bomb diggity.
13. Mean Girls defines my life. what?
14. I have two half brothers and a newly born half sister. um, i don't talk to or see my dad's kids, and i love with my brother jakey wakey eggs and bakey and he's one of my best friends.
15. Chocolate and Hot Tamales. i doubt anyone knows that...weird.
16. umm, probably snow white and the seven dwarfs.
17. FUCK ugg boots...it's all about them EMUS. yes, they are ugly, but they'll work until i get a boyfriend who gives GOOD foot rubs.
18. MILK, yummm. chocolate milk is my first love.
19. NOYFB.
20. nope. thankfully, i got my father's eyes.
21. PSYCHOLOGY. luvvvv it.
22. i used to play field hockey and i kinda miss it. i also used to dance, and i REALLY miss that.
23. lady gaga is the shit. she's famous for being weirdly attractive and being able to sing her heart out not to mention bust out some crazy shit at the same time...AND pull off a dress that was literally "off the meat rack" if you HATE her, you're just jealous. if you love her, join the club.
24. i literally JUST saw SAW 3D. it was good, as usual.
25. last book i read....uhh, oh yeah! i read all of chelsea handler's books. HOLLA!
26. ITALY, INDIA, and SPAIN.
27. girls - emma marie, alexa lynn. boys - max amillion, christopher connor. pets(dogs) - mufahsa, retta, and zero(my future dog).
28. jonathan taylor thomas, i will never forget when my poster with him on it got ripped, i cried alllll fucking day. UNHEALTHY. usher was pretty hot, too.
29. No opinions.
*commercial break...llyod banks is a sexy ass mother fucker. WHEW! omg...AND funny.
30. ummm, this isn't recent at all...but i love it, and it was a good good night.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
i REALLY need a set bedtime.
i'm such a damn night owl these days...
i think i just have a lot on my mind, therefor my mind has some real trouble shutting off. i still haven't written to my dad. i think once i do that, it will take a lot off my chest. kinda weird that everyone seems to be worried about me lately...or "checking up" on me. it's cool to see that people actually give a damn, but all the same unfamiliar. usually it's me who is worried about everyone else, but really i've just been laying really low. i feel like the kind of person i am requires a constant love connection with someone of the opposite sex. the need to care and love (and be loved) is just...in me. i can't get rid of it, and it's starting to make me feel, well, sort of fucking worthless. to an extent. i have no ambition anymore, no drive, no urge. the only time i feel any of that anymore is when it comes to a member of the opposite sex. but nobody in particular. i've pretty much given up on myself, people around me, and every male in this general region. i want change, i want to feel important, and i could really use some companionship. is that really too much to ask? i feel like i am slowly getting everything i once yearned for. (freedom, real time to work on school, less hours at work, ect.) but it's funny how once you get something, it doesn't really seem so fucking great anymore...another night with no one to love. jesus christ that sounds corny, but who the fuck reads this anyway?
i think i just have a lot on my mind, therefor my mind has some real trouble shutting off. i still haven't written to my dad. i think once i do that, it will take a lot off my chest. kinda weird that everyone seems to be worried about me lately...or "checking up" on me. it's cool to see that people actually give a damn, but all the same unfamiliar. usually it's me who is worried about everyone else, but really i've just been laying really low. i feel like the kind of person i am requires a constant love connection with someone of the opposite sex. the need to care and love (and be loved) is just...in me. i can't get rid of it, and it's starting to make me feel, well, sort of fucking worthless. to an extent. i have no ambition anymore, no drive, no urge. the only time i feel any of that anymore is when it comes to a member of the opposite sex. but nobody in particular. i've pretty much given up on myself, people around me, and every male in this general region. i want change, i want to feel important, and i could really use some companionship. is that really too much to ask? i feel like i am slowly getting everything i once yearned for. (freedom, real time to work on school, less hours at work, ect.) but it's funny how once you get something, it doesn't really seem so fucking great anymore...another night with no one to love. jesus christ that sounds corny, but who the fuck reads this anyway?
Sunday, October 24, 2010
sucka free.
going to actually try and get some good sleep tonight (after i write). i gotta get up earlyish for school but no nap after...cleaning my room and going to try and make it to the gym before norfolk with jerry. sounds like a good day ahead. i'm exited to see sothra's new car, i hear its gunna be niiiiice. i wish i felt as comfortable around him as i do with jamie, but its whatever...i'm going because jerry asked me to so that's what its all about. i'm bummed that i didn't get to stand in line at ocean mystique today for a $20 tattoo, but i had to work, and i probably would have ran into donald and autumn again. now THAT would have been awkward. anyways, i've been trying really hard to be level headed lately. meaning i've been working on letting the little things slide. it's really not worth freaking out about, but i really snapped tonight. i'm glad i was with jerry. i really appreciate his company. and april's, too. her and sisters have been keeping me so entertained lately, i LOVE it. and i LOVE them. life is so...content.
i could write so much more, but it's really just time to get some sleep. love.
i could write so much more, but it's really just time to get some sleep. love.
you are beautiful.
thanks for making my night when no one else could.
you may have said some offensive things to me,
but i love you, none the less.
you are a good friend.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
make it right, now matter how i try.
it's fucking pouring. this is what my insides feel like.
thanks, weather...for matching my mood.
oh, and washing my truck ;0
anyways, i love my new phone. that's one thing that keeps me happy.
wish i had more people to talk to on it, sorta.
i started a new journal last night, it's weird to write again.
journals remind me of my past, and i'm not so sure that's somewhere i want to go...
my life can't seem to get any more lame right now.
i guess that's what happens when you try really hard to be drama free.
what. the. fuck. is. wrong. with. me.
nobody is ever happy anymore. or at least that's how i feel.
thanks, weather...for matching my mood.
oh, and washing my truck ;0
anyways, i love my new phone. that's one thing that keeps me happy.
wish i had more people to talk to on it, sorta.
i started a new journal last night, it's weird to write again.
journals remind me of my past, and i'm not so sure that's somewhere i want to go...
my life can't seem to get any more lame right now.
i guess that's what happens when you try really hard to be drama free.
what. the. fuck. is. wrong. with. me.
nobody is ever happy anymore. or at least that's how i feel.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
"if you want something then go for it."
it's pissing me off that my tattoos are the only thing holding me back. what the fuck? i'm a 20 year old female willing to risk my life for this country and here i am, waiting to find out if the military will allow me to fight for this country while having fucking birds on my feet. we'll see. wtf, bro.
it's pissing me off that my tattoos are the only thing holding me back. what the fuck? i'm a 20 year old female willing to risk my life for this country and here i am, waiting to find out if the military will allow me to fight for this country while having fucking birds on my feet. we'll see. wtf, bro.
Friday, October 1, 2010
A FLUCKIN' WEEK OR SO?! LIFE IS ALL ABOUT SOME WAITIN'.
dayum, sista, dayum.
i woke up with a damn stye today, and it hurts like a biotch.
so slipped on some yoga pants, a bra, and some vans.
grabbed my mom's keys, and headed out to rite aid for some eye ointment.
this shit sucks balls. im in such a good mood lately, and it's kind of funny cause i haven't been hanging out with anyone but MYSELF. this is weird. i've found lately that maybe i don't need to be around others to be happy? this is weird. weird, weird. not just sorta weird. i actually love my dog more than most human beings. im gunna be an old cat lady one day but instead have dogs, forcing me to be an old dog lady...weird combo of words, dont ya think? anyways, im going to crash on the sofa and be a couch potatatatatao until round about 4 taaa shower for work. ello world! goodbye blog, tata for now.
dayum, sista, dayum.
i woke up with a damn stye today, and it hurts like a biotch.
so slipped on some yoga pants, a bra, and some vans.
grabbed my mom's keys, and headed out to rite aid for some eye ointment.
this shit sucks balls. im in such a good mood lately, and it's kind of funny cause i haven't been hanging out with anyone but MYSELF. this is weird. i've found lately that maybe i don't need to be around others to be happy? this is weird. weird, weird. not just sorta weird. i actually love my dog more than most human beings. im gunna be an old cat lady one day but instead have dogs, forcing me to be an old dog lady...weird combo of words, dont ya think? anyways, im going to crash on the sofa and be a couch potatatatatao until round about 4 taaa shower for work. ello world! goodbye blog, tata for now.
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