"utopia."
balboa island, california.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
jns, i'm fucked up. you know this, i know this, everyone knows this. everything that has happened between us is extremely unfortunate and although you may never forgive me or even believe me for that matter, everything that happened that night was not planned out in my head. i knew he wanted to fight you, and i knew that he might just go ahead, but honestly, what was i going to do other than say "nah, don't do that." you are my ex, and he was my current boyfriend. i did not know it was going to escalate so fast, and before i knew it, i had absolutely no control. i'm also sorry that she got hit, and for the record, if i ever see that guy again i would punch him in the face for hitting a girl. although i do not like her because of her lack of respect for me, it was wrong and i am truly sorry. you were my best friend. and i'm sorry for breaking your heart, whether i really did or not. you're such an amazing person, and i hope that you find someone who truly appreciates that, like i once did. i hope one day that you can forgive me and we can be somewhat normal again, but even if you never do, please know that i will always be here for you, whether you need me or not. i love you josh, and i will always consider you as one of my good friends, even if you never accept me as one.
be good,
amberella
be good,
amberella
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
i don't even know what the hell to say to you anymore. you have let me down more than i thought possible by anyone, let alone yourself. i feel like the relationship we have is slowly starting to deteriorate and i can't honestly say that i give a shit, not even a little bit. not even at all. there's something in me that wants to try, that wants to forgive and move the fuck on, but you know what? right now i am 20 years old and it's about fucking time i stop letting myself be hurt by your bullshit. it's about time i do me, and you do you. not that you haven't been doing that, but this time it's really about you. you and your family. me and mine. that's how this is gunna go down, and you know what? i'm not okay with it, so i won't even begin to try and convince myself that i am anymore, but i'm also not going to keep making an effort when i don't feel like i'm getting anything in return. the sad thing is i'm not so sure if it's even worth it anymore. worth it anymore to me, or to you. i have acquaintances who know more about me than you ever have or ever will, and it baffles me to know that you care so much but don't show it. do you know how that feels? do you know how it feels for me when i can't let myself just relax and get comfy with someone because the minute i do, i just know that they will stop caring and give up and on me. i have broken up with every single person i have ever dated because i feel like if i don't leave them first then i'll risk being hurt instead. i can't sacrifice feeling the way you make me feel when i know that i have control over it. i don't feel good enough for you, so how could i be good enough for anyone? i don't want your money, i don't want your emails, what i do want is for you to figure things out, support your new family, take care of your kids (excluding me of course), love your wife, and give them all the things i missed out on. i appreciate the blog post about me and how my "compassion and infinite understanding of me(being you) is profound" but you have it all wrong. i am no longer understanding, and the only thing i have compassion for is to learn the real meaning of love and learn to not let your lack of influence and presence deter me from committing to someone and believing that they would never leave me, even when times get hard. you are family, and i am here because of you, and for that, i will always love you. however, as for now, i seem distant because i want to be. because i am 20 and for the first time in my life, i am not seeking you or anyone else's approval. i am focusing on school, my friends, my family, and my job. and that, just that, is all i have the energy for anymore.
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Daniel Aaron Getrige,
first off, i know that you know all of this already because well, to be quite honest, i think about you almost every day and talk to you at least a few times a week. i have so much belief in the fact that if you weren't up there watching over my crazy ass, i would have probably been pretty fucked in numerous occasions. the number of times that i have been lucky enough to have literally just missed out on the bad things in life is way too high for anyone to not believe me when i say that there is such thing as a guardian angel, and you - in fact, are mine. this is not going to be a typical sappy ass depressing letter to someone who is no longer with us here on earth, because with you there was no sadness. you were all about good times, all the time, and that's the number one reason i always try to see things for what they are, and make the best of any situation. you are so much more of an inspiration to me than i ever got to tell you, but please believe me when i say that you are the most amazing man i have ever had in my life. you were my dad, my brother, my best friend, my favorite person in the world, and most importantly, the best uncle anyone could ever have imagined. you were always so funny and upbeat, even when you were stuck in a house with IVs pumping you full of medication on the regular. i miss you cooking in the kitchen in the house on bryces lane and showing me your frogs and playing earthworm jim, sonic, and fucking mortal combat like it was your job! and i miss you teaching me cool computer tricks and making me cool note pads to draw on and even introducing me to pink floyd, incubus, and good ass movies like cruel intentions and half baked. and i miss your apt SO much, too. eventually grandma and i wanna clean it all out and fix it up so i can stay there for a while. i would love it so much, can you imagine!? god we've had some good times over there, even with you away, but i can honestly say that every time would have been THAT much better with you there being the goof that you always were. OH MY GOD and remember all the times you would play that game with your fingers and a steak knife!? that shit had grandma freaking the fuck out! goodness i'm glad you don't do that now, she would probably have a heart attack, the woman still freaks out when i WALK with scissors in my hand. hahaha oh man i miss you. but like i mentioned before, you already know all of this, and you know how much i long for you to be here with us. god, what i would give to kick back in your apt smoking a fat ass blunt and listening to incubus. can you imagine?
you favorite niece and best friend,
amber - xxxxo.
ps - that was some cool shit you did the other day, thanks for that. and i KNOW you know what i'm talking about. love you!
first off, i know that you know all of this already because well, to be quite honest, i think about you almost every day and talk to you at least a few times a week. i have so much belief in the fact that if you weren't up there watching over my crazy ass, i would have probably been pretty fucked in numerous occasions. the number of times that i have been lucky enough to have literally just missed out on the bad things in life is way too high for anyone to not believe me when i say that there is such thing as a guardian angel, and you - in fact, are mine. this is not going to be a typical sappy ass depressing letter to someone who is no longer with us here on earth, because with you there was no sadness. you were all about good times, all the time, and that's the number one reason i always try to see things for what they are, and make the best of any situation. you are so much more of an inspiration to me than i ever got to tell you, but please believe me when i say that you are the most amazing man i have ever had in my life. you were my dad, my brother, my best friend, my favorite person in the world, and most importantly, the best uncle anyone could ever have imagined. you were always so funny and upbeat, even when you were stuck in a house with IVs pumping you full of medication on the regular. i miss you cooking in the kitchen in the house on bryces lane and showing me your frogs and playing earthworm jim, sonic, and fucking mortal combat like it was your job! and i miss you teaching me cool computer tricks and making me cool note pads to draw on and even introducing me to pink floyd, incubus, and good ass movies like cruel intentions and half baked. and i miss your apt SO much, too. eventually grandma and i wanna clean it all out and fix it up so i can stay there for a while. i would love it so much, can you imagine!? god we've had some good times over there, even with you away, but i can honestly say that every time would have been THAT much better with you there being the goof that you always were. OH MY GOD and remember all the times you would play that game with your fingers and a steak knife!? that shit had grandma freaking the fuck out! goodness i'm glad you don't do that now, she would probably have a heart attack, the woman still freaks out when i WALK with scissors in my hand. hahaha oh man i miss you. but like i mentioned before, you already know all of this, and you know how much i long for you to be here with us. god, what i would give to kick back in your apt smoking a fat ass blunt and listening to incubus. can you imagine?
you favorite niece and best friend,
amber - xxxxo.
ps - that was some cool shit you did the other day, thanks for that. and i KNOW you know what i'm talking about. love you!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
Oh and I'm feeling
Directionless yes
But that's to be expected
And I know that best
And in creeps the morning
And another day's lost
You've just written wondering
And I reply fast
All you need to save me
All you need to save me
Call (call)
And I'll be curled on the floor
Hiding out from it all (all)
And I won't take any other call
I feel like a fool
So I'm going to stop troubling you
Buried in my yard
A letter to send to you
And if I forget
Or god forbid die too soon
Hope that you'll hear me
Know that I wrote to you
All you need to say to me
All you need to say to me
Is call (call)
And I'll be curled on the floor
Hiding out from it all
And I won't take any other call
Directionless yes
But that's to be expected
And I know that best
And in creeps the morning
And another day's lost
You've just written wondering
And I reply fast
All you need to save me
All you need to save me
Call (call)
And I'll be curled on the floor
Hiding out from it all (all)
And I won't take any other call
I feel like a fool
So I'm going to stop troubling you
Buried in my yard
A letter to send to you
And if I forget
Or god forbid die too soon
Hope that you'll hear me
Know that I wrote to you
All you need to say to me
All you need to say to me
Is call (call)
And I'll be curled on the floor
Hiding out from it all
And I won't take any other call
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
RTK & SDS;
Although you are not the same people, the paths you both have chosen share quite a few similarities to me. I love you both equally and i miss one of you more than you could know. you both have changed, and i don't want to write it off as a "bad" change, but I wouldn't label it as "good," either. i know that you both are responsible enough to take care of yourselves, but it doesn't mean i don't worry. i know that one of you is doing pretty good, and actually steadily improving your life, and for that i am very proud. the other one of you is also doing pretty well, but unfortunately we don't have the same friendship that we used to so i can't really comment any more on your life and what it entails at the moment. anyways, i wish the best for the both of you and i love you both with alllll my heart! i wish we could go back to the good ol' days when all we worried about was which one of you i liked more. haha, cute little boys.
stay gold.
-ajb
Although you are not the same people, the paths you both have chosen share quite a few similarities to me. I love you both equally and i miss one of you more than you could know. you both have changed, and i don't want to write it off as a "bad" change, but I wouldn't label it as "good," either. i know that you both are responsible enough to take care of yourselves, but it doesn't mean i don't worry. i know that one of you is doing pretty good, and actually steadily improving your life, and for that i am very proud. the other one of you is also doing pretty well, but unfortunately we don't have the same friendship that we used to so i can't really comment any more on your life and what it entails at the moment. anyways, i wish the best for the both of you and i love you both with alllll my heart! i wish we could go back to the good ol' days when all we worried about was which one of you i liked more. haha, cute little boys.
stay gold.
-ajb
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
The REAL love(s) of my life,
OH. you (all) are amazing. i want to start off by saying that i am so grateful for your talent, and your ability to sing my life to me out of the corner of your mouth so effortlessly without having ever met me. your band is one of epic proportions, and i someday (sooner than later) plan to get a tattoo in remembrance. not that you guys will be gone anytime soon, but in remembrance of how much your lyrics helped me through what i would consider as one of the toughest times of my life. your music takes me to a place to which i cannot even begin to describe. i have always loved music and always found bands in which i have felt very drawn to, however, no band has ever had quite the effect of yours. what i cherish the most is that no matter what mood i am in, i can throw on any record of yours and instantly feel like someone else has felt the same exact feeling, past, or present. which in any state, is the best feeling in the world. when people listen to music, they want it to hit them, and they want to be able to relate, and they want to be able to have that one record they can throw on in any moment of their life, and not regret the decision. this is you. this is your band. this is your life, and thank you for saving mine.
always,
amber b.
xo
OH. you (all) are amazing. i want to start off by saying that i am so grateful for your talent, and your ability to sing my life to me out of the corner of your mouth so effortlessly without having ever met me. your band is one of epic proportions, and i someday (sooner than later) plan to get a tattoo in remembrance. not that you guys will be gone anytime soon, but in remembrance of how much your lyrics helped me through what i would consider as one of the toughest times of my life. your music takes me to a place to which i cannot even begin to describe. i have always loved music and always found bands in which i have felt very drawn to, however, no band has ever had quite the effect of yours. what i cherish the most is that no matter what mood i am in, i can throw on any record of yours and instantly feel like someone else has felt the same exact feeling, past, or present. which in any state, is the best feeling in the world. when people listen to music, they want it to hit them, and they want to be able to relate, and they want to be able to have that one record they can throw on in any moment of their life, and not regret the decision. this is you. this is your band. this is your life, and thank you for saving mine.
always,
amber b.
xo
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
i don't have a favorite internet friend, or any for that matter.
how unfortunate!
how unfortunate!
Friday, August 20, 2010
jusssst sayin'
I LOVE T.E.S.
the ONLY bitch that truly understands me and accepts me for all that i am!
the ONLY bitch that truly understands me and accepts me for all that i am!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
dpmf,
let me start by saying that although i do not regret the time we spent together, i do regret the way we treated each other. i am in no way implying that i think "we" could ever really work, i just think we could have been a lot nicer to each other, ya know? i was really bummed that everything ended the way it did, but family is first and most important in my life, because (like you have beautifully illustrated) family will ALWAYS be there for me. even when you (or anyone for that matter) aren't. i know i wasn't perfect, but being with you really taught me how much of a nurturer that i can be, and how much i really love it. dating you made me proud of myself, it showed me that love really does exists, and that no matter how fucked up i feel like i am at times, there will always be someone there who beats it. i don't mean that in a shitty way (not that you'll be reading this and get offended anyways) but by saying this, i'm trying to say that i appreciated seeing someone else get the short end of the stick and knowing that shit can be a lot harder than i have had it. dating you also made me grateful for my family, and grateful of how truly loving and helpful my family is. living with you for a few months was something i will never take for granted because it was beautiful. it was beautiful to fall asleep next to the person i loved and wake up the next morning to coffee, even if you were in a rush. it was nice to be able to see a family other than mine love me and care for me like i was one of their own. it was all nice. i miss movie nights, and i miss the kids. i miss little bella roo roo, and i secretly even miss the mice. i miss your mom getting so wasted that she would talk to me for hours, and i miss your dad trying to teach me his ways in the kitchen or on the grill. i miss peeling shrimp and i miss cleaning the table. i miss the numbness of my feet on your front porch and the ultra cluttered garage. i miss napping in your room while you were at work, and i miss waking up and waiting for you to get home. however, it is always easier to remember the good memories because i only choose to remember those. i don't want to remember the bad times, but i am quite aware that they took place, and for that, i am so glad it is over. thank you for taking the time to call me that night i texted you from kelly's gingernut pub, because all i needed was some closure, and thanks to autumn and yourself, that was all that happened. that was all that needed to happen, and nothing feels greater than knowing about your life when you know nothing about mine. as childish as it sounds, i feel like i won. for once in my life, i truly won. not by dating you, not by breaking up with you, not by being happier than i have been in AGES, but simply because unlike you, i know when to swallow my pride, and for that, i will always be on top.
forever,
amber.
let me start by saying that although i do not regret the time we spent together, i do regret the way we treated each other. i am in no way implying that i think "we" could ever really work, i just think we could have been a lot nicer to each other, ya know? i was really bummed that everything ended the way it did, but family is first and most important in my life, because (like you have beautifully illustrated) family will ALWAYS be there for me. even when you (or anyone for that matter) aren't. i know i wasn't perfect, but being with you really taught me how much of a nurturer that i can be, and how much i really love it. dating you made me proud of myself, it showed me that love really does exists, and that no matter how fucked up i feel like i am at times, there will always be someone there who beats it. i don't mean that in a shitty way (not that you'll be reading this and get offended anyways) but by saying this, i'm trying to say that i appreciated seeing someone else get the short end of the stick and knowing that shit can be a lot harder than i have had it. dating you also made me grateful for my family, and grateful of how truly loving and helpful my family is. living with you for a few months was something i will never take for granted because it was beautiful. it was beautiful to fall asleep next to the person i loved and wake up the next morning to coffee, even if you were in a rush. it was nice to be able to see a family other than mine love me and care for me like i was one of their own. it was all nice. i miss movie nights, and i miss the kids. i miss little bella roo roo, and i secretly even miss the mice. i miss your mom getting so wasted that she would talk to me for hours, and i miss your dad trying to teach me his ways in the kitchen or on the grill. i miss peeling shrimp and i miss cleaning the table. i miss the numbness of my feet on your front porch and the ultra cluttered garage. i miss napping in your room while you were at work, and i miss waking up and waiting for you to get home. however, it is always easier to remember the good memories because i only choose to remember those. i don't want to remember the bad times, but i am quite aware that they took place, and for that, i am so glad it is over. thank you for taking the time to call me that night i texted you from kelly's gingernut pub, because all i needed was some closure, and thanks to autumn and yourself, that was all that happened. that was all that needed to happen, and nothing feels greater than knowing about your life when you know nothing about mine. as childish as it sounds, i feel like i won. for once in my life, i truly won. not by dating you, not by breaking up with you, not by being happier than i have been in AGES, but simply because unlike you, i know when to swallow my pride, and for that, i will always be on top.
forever,
amber.
#CHILLTHEFUCKOUT
WHY THE HELL DO PEOPLE GET OFFENDED THAT I "NEVER ASK" THEM TO HANGOUT, BUT WHEN I DO TAKE THE TIME TO TRY, THEY NEVER GO?
STUPID, STUPID BITCHES.
STUPID, STUPID BITCHES.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
70x7
STILL haven't gotten the noisettes album. this saddens me. however, i have had an awesome past couples of days, and after today's shift (2-10) i am free of work for an entire week and i'm going to see my cousin this weekend! the days have begun to feel shorter and shorter, and i feel like i'm starting to see things the way they are meant to be seen. i would like to start appreciating things more and take the time to sit down, and actually think about shit for once. i've been going, going, going, but i don't want to be gone. i see what you mean about drama i my life, and although i don't believe it is my fault, i do see the ways that i could reduce it, or eliminate it all together. step one: stop hanging out with the ILC. i find it funny that people who claim to be one way, turn out to be almost the exact opposite. i want to relax, i want to be loved, and i want to keep a few friends and give up on the rest. i love my "groups" (as taylor/kristina call it) however, i am tired of all the bullshit that comes along with hanging out with so many different people. what you(in general) don't understand is that hanging out with so many people is refreshing to me. it's not just the same shit, different day routine for me, and i love that about my life. if i wanna smoke, i got someone. if i wanna drink, i got someone. if i wanna cruise with a bunch of good people, i got someone. if i wanna see some stand up, or just sit around a fire, i got someone. i have people, and making everyone happy before myself, and more importantly, taking care of everyone else before myself - MAKES ME HAPPY. but is that ever enough? for anyone?
Day 6 — A stranger
It seems strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years I had roses and apologized to no one. I shall die here. Every inch of me shall perish. Every inch, but one. An inch. It is small and it is fragile and it is the only thing in the world worth having. We must never lose it or give it away. We must NEVER let them take it from us. I hope that whoever you are, you escape this place. I hope that the worlds turns, and that things get better. But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that, even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you.
(V for Vendetta)
(V for Vendetta)
Friday, August 13, 2010
LUCKY [fri] 8.13.10
buying the noisettes album today.
ANDDD going to hampton H&M con april to shop my heart out.
i am so excited :)
ANDDD going to hampton H&M con april to shop my heart out.
i am so excited :)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Dreamland,
Please stop letting me dream about my past. k, thanks.
OH, and QUIT WITH THE FUCKING DIRTY BATHROOM DREAMS/NIGHTMARES.
cause BOTH of those topics are getting old as fuck.
Please stop letting me dream about my past. k, thanks.
OH, and QUIT WITH THE FUCKING DIRTY BATHROOM DREAMS/NIGHTMARES.
cause BOTH of those topics are getting old as fuck.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Baby Boy (aka: jakey wakey eggs and bakey),
I love you more than life itself. You truly are my most favorite person in the entire world. I'm sorry I'm so hard on you sometimes, but I just don't want you to grow up a spoiled little brat cause you're so much better than that, and I know you know that I love you more than anything in the whole wide world. I'm soooooo gunna miss the summer time, coming home late as hell and just kicking it on the couch with you and then knowing you're gunna joke me cause i get tired and wanna go lay down. I'm so lucky to have such an awesome relationship with you, I hope we continue to become closer and closer the older we get, and I'm so glad that you know how much I love you, and I'm also glad that you know I will always be here for you no matter what! anyways, I love you little boy, all the way up to the sky and back!
love,
your sister. xoxoxoxoxo!
I love you more than life itself. You truly are my most favorite person in the entire world. I'm sorry I'm so hard on you sometimes, but I just don't want you to grow up a spoiled little brat cause you're so much better than that, and I know you know that I love you more than anything in the whole wide world. I'm soooooo gunna miss the summer time, coming home late as hell and just kicking it on the couch with you and then knowing you're gunna joke me cause i get tired and wanna go lay down. I'm so lucky to have such an awesome relationship with you, I hope we continue to become closer and closer the older we get, and I'm so glad that you know how much I love you, and I'm also glad that you know I will always be here for you no matter what! anyways, I love you little boy, all the way up to the sky and back!
love,
your sister. xoxoxoxoxo!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
to kill a mockingbird
is to silence the song
that seduces you
why?
'cause you need that desire in your heart to survive
and you need that burning fire in your soul to know
you're still alive
so catch me when I fall
or did I dive at your delight?
in my heart I can fly
and I cannot disguise my love
there is no time
and I wouldn't know how
constellations tonight
are so fiercesomely bright, my love
I have no fear
I am Atticus now
remember what I lost like hot coals in my hand from days gone by
like Pandora adored the euphoria as her heart raced
like love lost you've got to try even in vain
feels like you'll go insane
but you're the hardest instrument that I've ever had to play
in my heart I can fly
and I cannot disguise my love
there is no time
and I wouldn't know how to
constellations tonight
are so fiercesomely bright, my love
I have no fear
I am Atticus now
so why don't we fall into the waves?
can't you see how my heart yearns to misbehave?
in my heart I can fly
and I cannot disguise my love
there is no time to
and I wouldn't know how
constellations tonight
are so fiercesomely bright, my love
I have no fear left
'cause I am Atticus now
so why don't we fall into the waves?
can't you see how my heart yearns to misbehave?
is to silence the song
that seduces you
why?
'cause you need that desire in your heart to survive
and you need that burning fire in your soul to know
you're still alive
so catch me when I fall
or did I dive at your delight?
in my heart I can fly
and I cannot disguise my love
there is no time
and I wouldn't know how
constellations tonight
are so fiercesomely bright, my love
I have no fear
I am Atticus now
remember what I lost like hot coals in my hand from days gone by
like Pandora adored the euphoria as her heart raced
like love lost you've got to try even in vain
feels like you'll go insane
but you're the hardest instrument that I've ever had to play
in my heart I can fly
and I cannot disguise my love
there is no time
and I wouldn't know how to
constellations tonight
are so fiercesomely bright, my love
I have no fear
I am Atticus now
so why don't we fall into the waves?
can't you see how my heart yearns to misbehave?
in my heart I can fly
and I cannot disguise my love
there is no time to
and I wouldn't know how
constellations tonight
are so fiercesomely bright, my love
I have no fear left
'cause I am Atticus now
so why don't we fall into the waves?
can't you see how my heart yearns to misbehave?
Day Three -- Your Parents
Mother Dear,
You are all that i hope to be. patient, beautiful, smart, funny, kind, creative, giving, caring, admirable, hard-working, and everything else everyone hopes for in a mother. i couldn't and wouldn't ever dare to ask for more. you've helped me through so much, and you, out of everyone else, have truly always been there for me. i have never been afraid to tell you anything, because i know that no matter how horrible it could be, you would be there right by my side, guiding me through. you're so understanding and all-knowing, i can't ever imagine measuring up to such a wonderful human being. you accept me when i feel like no one else does, and you always know what to say. you agree with me on the things you should, and you disagree on the things i need you to. you are my best friend in the entire world, and i wouldn't have it any other way. you are what a mother is supposed to be, what every child deserves from a parent, and more importantly, what every single person needs. whether it be as a mom, wife, sister, aunt, daughter, grand-daughter, friend, or even a co-worker. you are perfect, and incredible, just exactly the way you are.
that's all. xxoo
You are all that i hope to be. patient, beautiful, smart, funny, kind, creative, giving, caring, admirable, hard-working, and everything else everyone hopes for in a mother. i couldn't and wouldn't ever dare to ask for more. you've helped me through so much, and you, out of everyone else, have truly always been there for me. i have never been afraid to tell you anything, because i know that no matter how horrible it could be, you would be there right by my side, guiding me through. you're so understanding and all-knowing, i can't ever imagine measuring up to such a wonderful human being. you accept me when i feel like no one else does, and you always know what to say. you agree with me on the things you should, and you disagree on the things i need you to. you are my best friend in the entire world, and i wouldn't have it any other way. you are what a mother is supposed to be, what every child deserves from a parent, and more importantly, what every single person needs. whether it be as a mom, wife, sister, aunt, daughter, grand-daughter, friend, or even a co-worker. you are perfect, and incredible, just exactly the way you are.
that's all. xxoo
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Day 2 - Your Crush
*you are my person, unlike no one else ever will be. and i love you, with everything in my body.
*there was a lot more said, however, blogger does not deserve to have such contents shown.
*there was a lot more said, however, blogger does not deserve to have such contents shown.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
bloc party
To be lost in the forest
To be cut adrift
You've been trying to reach me
You bought me a book
To be lost in the forest
To be cut adrift
I've been paid
I've been paid
Don't get offended
If I seem absent minded
Just keep telling me facts
And keep making me smile
Don't get offended
If I seem absent minded
I get tongue-tied
Baby, you've got to be more discerning
I've known never known what's good for me
Baby, you've got to be more demanding
I will be yours
I'll pay for you anytime
I'll pay for you anytime
And you told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Well jump on, enjoy, and gorge away
You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Jump right
Baby, you've got to be more discerning
I've never known what's good for me
Baby, you've got to be more demanding
Jump left
What are you holding out for?
What's always in the way?
Why so damn absent-minded?
Why so scared of romance?
This modern love breaks me
This modern love wastes me
Do you wanna come over and kill some time?
Do you wanna come over and kill some time?
Do you wanna come over and kill some time?
Throw your arms around me.
To be cut adrift
You've been trying to reach me
You bought me a book
To be lost in the forest
To be cut adrift
I've been paid
I've been paid
Don't get offended
If I seem absent minded
Just keep telling me facts
And keep making me smile
Don't get offended
If I seem absent minded
I get tongue-tied
Baby, you've got to be more discerning
I've known never known what's good for me
Baby, you've got to be more demanding
I will be yours
I'll pay for you anytime
I'll pay for you anytime
And you told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Well jump on, enjoy, and gorge away
You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Jump right
Baby, you've got to be more discerning
I've never known what's good for me
Baby, you've got to be more demanding
Jump left
What are you holding out for?
What's always in the way?
Why so damn absent-minded?
Why so scared of romance?
This modern love breaks me
This modern love wastes me
Do you wanna come over and kill some time?
Do you wanna come over and kill some time?
Do you wanna come over and kill some time?
Throw your arms around me.
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
You know who you are - you are the most amazing girl in the whole wide world. i'm so glad that i started talking to you in high school, if i hadn't, i would definitely have missed out on a huge and awesome part of my life. you're the one i call at 4am when i'm stranded somewhere balling my eyes out, or just need someone to share my happiness with. you've always been there for everything and i'm soooo excited that things are starting to look up for you - because out of everyone, YOU deserve it. you're so good at everything you do whether it be a friend, a girlfriend, a sister, a daughter, or grand daughter. we've had soooooo many good times together, and i can't wait until we're old and married and our kids grow up together, too. good lord can you imagine the stories we'll be able to tell them? you better leave the hairy parts out, too! you know what i mean...no need to reference. haha! i'm so excited that you have your own place now, it's gunna be awesome! i can't wait to look back on this and think "holy shit that was forever ago!" (hopefully we will be living together by that time, jesus!) anyways, enough of this mushy gushy bullshit. *don't look at meeeee!* hahahahaha, i love you sister solider, fo'eva and eva!
ps - how fucking excited are you for "jaja fest: summer 2011"?!
ps - how fucking excited are you for "jaja fest: summer 2011"?!
we'll see.
WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
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