70x7

STILL haven't gotten the noisettes album. this saddens me. however, i have had an awesome past couples of days, and after today's shift (2-10) i am free of work for an entire week and i'm going to see my cousin this weekend! the days have begun to feel shorter and shorter, and i feel like i'm starting to see things the way they are meant to be seen. i would like to start appreciating things more and take the time to sit down, and actually think about shit for once. i've been going, going, going, but i don't want to be gone. i see what you mean about drama i my life, and although i don't believe it is my fault, i do see the ways that i could reduce it, or eliminate it all together. step one: stop hanging out with the ILC. i find it funny that people who claim to be one way, turn out to be almost the exact opposite. i want to relax, i want to be loved, and i want to keep a few friends and give up on the rest. i love my "groups" (as taylor/kristina call it) however, i am tired of all the bullshit that comes along with hanging out with so many different people. what you(in general) don't understand is that hanging out with so many people is refreshing to me. it's not just the same shit, different day routine for me, and i love that about my life. if i wanna smoke, i got someone. if i wanna drink, i got someone. if i wanna cruise with a bunch of good people, i got someone. if i wanna see some stand up, or just sit around a fire, i got someone. i have people, and making everyone happy before myself, and more importantly, taking care of everyone else before myself - MAKES ME HAPPY. but is that ever enough? for anyone?