i know more than i knew before

i miss being dropped off at your house when my mom would go pick up my brother.
i miss walking or riding my bike to your house and being so damn nervous.
i miss walking you to the end of my street and our 2 hr "goodbyes."
i miss begging for rides to your house and driving there the first day i had my license.
i miss driving us to the beach and you begging me to play your music.
i miss dating your best friend but secretly loving you.
i miss being happy about going to work because it meant i would see you.
i miss laying in bed and watching ncis with you.
i miss enjoying the sound of "soul meets body" coming out of my speakers.
i miss your honesty, our trust in each other, and forgiveness.
i miss you buying me a butterfinger or skittles all the time, even when i didn't ask.
i miss you taking me out to dinner on our anniversaries.
i miss smoking pot with you. (sometimes)
i miss being so drunk and comfortable in your arms.
i miss taking showers with you, that's why i never did it with the other you. (btw)
i miss me catching you looking over at me when drifting off to sleep.
i miss you introducing me into new music and knowing everything about every artist ever.
i miss that couch, and sitting on it with you no matter what we were doing.
i miss watching a kagillion movies with you.
i miss talking on the phone while watching road rules/real world.
i miss comfortable silence.


i fucking miss you, love.