Day 15 — The person you miss the most

this was a tough choice. daniel always wins, though. if i could have one thing in the whole wide world, it would be him. best unc ever!

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

damn i miss you girl! you were my first best friend in the whole world, and now you have a baby and we haven't talked in years. it makes me so damn sad that despite my best efforts, i cannot find you or get in contact with you. my last resort is going to phil's house and asking how i can find you, but i feel like that would be a little awkward. i wish i could remember his phone number! his wife is probably still crazy and would flip shit if i just showed up, haha. i miss you so much though! and i miss the time we had in SC when i stayed for two weeks! that was SO much fun. mud fights, four wheelers, scary corn fields, crazy boys, and attempting to drive your mommas car! hahaha, fun shit. i absolutely have to get back in touch with you! i promise i will, asap! love ya girl!

you don't ask for no diamond ring, no delicate string of pearls.

I AM A SIX.

i gotta see people for what they are and stop being so goddamn judgmental. i need to be more patient, kind, and understanding of people that i don't feel are as blessed with common sense like i feel that i am. i need to sit the fuck back, and keep my flaws insight and work on myself before worrying about someone else. i miss love. i really really gotta start to love myself again. i have to.

Basic Fear: Of being without support and guidance
Basic Desire: To have security and support

fuck you!

white pizza and skinny dip!
the way to a girl's heart.

"utopia."
balboa island, california.

levi joseph.
carson, california.

hotel room.
virginia beach, virginia.

it's a buick.
columbia, south carolina.

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

jns, i'm fucked up. you know this, i know this, everyone knows this. everything that has happened between us is extremely unfortunate and although you may never forgive me or even believe me for that matter, everything that happened that night was not planned out in my head. i knew he wanted to fight you, and i knew that he might just go ahead, but honestly, what was i going to do other than say "nah, don't do that." you are my ex, and he was my current boyfriend. i did not know it was going to escalate so fast, and before i knew it, i had absolutely no control. i'm also sorry that she got hit, and for the record, if i ever see that guy again i would punch him in the face for hitting a girl. although i do not like her because of her lack of respect for me, it was wrong and i am truly sorry. you were my best friend. and i'm sorry for breaking your heart, whether i really did or not. you're such an amazing person, and i hope that you find someone who truly appreciates that, like i once did. i hope one day that you can forgive me and we can be somewhat normal again, but even if you never do, please know that i will always be here for you, whether you need me or not. i love you josh, and i will always consider you as one of my good friends, even if you never accept me as one.

be good,
amberella